[leanne098Member]

I started out low key, the usual drinking, smoking pot, then some lines, and now I take meth. Ive read some of the posts on here and on other sites and it freaks me out how peoples lives have been destroyed by starting out like me. I cant imagine shooting up I don’t think Id do that. I don’t feel like Im out of control I just do it to relax and for the high. I think I could stop if I really tried but I don’t really want to. I know what I can take and I don’t get sloppy. There is such a thing as recreational drug use, not everybody gets screwed up and addicted. I think some people can just party and put it down when they need to. The only real problem I have with it is budgeting. Id be interested to hear from someone who was like me when they were younger, just to see how it worked out for them.

[alma765Member]

Leanne098, Regardless of whether there is such a thing a recreational drug use, drug use is never a good thing. There is no drug out there that is good for you, even prescription drugs have side effects. But illegal, controlled substances such as marijuana, cocaine and meth all have terrible side effects and are extremely addictive. The fact that you have progressed onto stronger drugs is a bad sign in itself, did you feel like you weren’t getting a good enough high smoking so moved on to bigger and better things? That is a huge warning sign. And trust me no one thinks they would “shoot up” when they start, in fact very few people start off on heroine they usually like you start out low key and eventually heroine is their only option to get what they need from the high. Even if your thought process wasn’t that you needed a better high, the fact that you are willing to try different drugs isn’t a good thing. I know you feel like you don’t need help but perhaps going to a drug addicts anonymous meeting or speaking to your doctor or a counsellor wouldn’t be a bad thing. They can explain the risks of your habit also the damage you are doing to your body and what the effects of both will have on you I the long term. It might be good to hear about dug use from a different perspective. Drug use doesn’t just affect you physically, it also has an affect on your social life and over a prolonged period this can be very damaging in many ways. I know what it is like to use drugs “recreationally”. I also know what it was like when I started to lose my friends and family members, when I lost job after job for showing up messed up or exhausted from the night before, when I exhausted all funds I had on the “recreational” drugs until I realised I had a full blown addiction and was struggling to keep a roof over my head. I didn’t seek out help until I had almost lost everything but I did it and after a long battle my life is beginning to turn around. Although I have things under control at the minute I know I will always struggle with my addiction, it’s a part of me now and I have to live with that and strive to continue on the right path. If I had known when I started out using for fun at a party every now and then, that my life would eventually be turned upside down, I wouldn’t have given saying “NO” a second thought.

[alpharoyaleMember]

I am currently in rehab trying to recover from a 4 year addiction to prescription drugs. It’s been a nitemare at times and I’ve thought about walking out back to my old life more times then I can remember. I have one clear point to make, you are never in control when using. These drugs are designed to alter your mind, you aren’t truly yourself while high. I was so many different me’s! I was depressed me, strung out me, angry me, delirious me, happy me, insane me and most of all desperate me and sometimes I was all at once. You can’t have the impression you are in control because the drugs are designed to make you out of control, to take you out of your comfort zone, lower your inhibitions, amp you up, chill you out, make you crave more, there are so many different things! Please be careful and give some serious thought as to why you feel the need to take drugs in the first place. Why do you need that to have a good time?

[amylovescocoMember]

I take drugs every now and then at parties. I don’t think it’s that big of a deal. I never feel the need for more afterwards and I never buy them, I just take a hit if it’s offered to me and I don’t always say yes. I’ve tried a few different things but there are some I stay clear of because of bad stories I have heard. I think it’s more risky for some. I have an uncle who is in AA and he is always talking about addictive personalities and how people with an addictive personality are likely to get hooked to alcahol, gambling, drugs etc. I never get too hooked on anything, even normal things like say games that you can’t stop playing, I get bored pretty easy. I don’t think I have that kind of personality so I don’t think Im at a huge risk. I know the risks involved too Im not stupid, I know the drugs I try and alcahol I drink can be addictive but Im careful and only do it every few months and I really don’t think it will lead to a problem. I agree with Leanne, can’t there be some people that really can just use recreationally? We don’t all have to have these underlying issues that make us have to have more, we all don’t have to get the same kind of “oh my gosh I gotta have more” attitude.

[believeingood23Member]

It saddens me to see that there are people who try to justify the use of an illegal substance. There are reasons why it’s illegal? It’s bad for you and society. And doesn’t the fact that you are breaking the law bother you? We live in an age where you have all the information you need at your fingertips by using the internet. You can google a question and get thousands of answers. If you googled the question “why shouldn’t I use drugs?” I bet there would be more answers then you could read and not just from the likes of me from well educated people, people with drug abuse history, trained medical practitioners, religious and political leaders, I mean the list could be endless. Even if you guys “don’t have a problem” you should respect that there are people on here that do and understand they hardly started out with the intention of becoming addicted and dependant! Even if you take the fact that they are highly addictive and what addiction does to your body and your life off the table, there are so many other reasons not to use. One of the main ones listed above, “it’s illegal”!! Its illegal to sell them, buy them, use them and be in possession of them. If you’re young and get a record it will affect you for the rest of your life. When you try to travel abroad, get a job and even going to college. Please consider every aspect of what you’re doing and try to make the right decision.

[rehabforme1Member]

I think Id be right to assume that some of the people posting on this topic are young and I think in responding to their questions we have to bear this in mind. You guys if you are just starting out taking drugs and at the moment you feel in control and are having fun then I know what that feels like. I was like you once too. I didn’t develop a problem for years until a n unexpected loss made my drug use spiral out of control, it didn’t last long but like most others it hindered my life so that I had to seek out professional help to stop. I hate to be the boring old guy (because I was cool once believe it or not) but its just never safe, you can’t always guarantee your life circumstances and there might (there mightn’t) but there might come a day when you need something to fall back on if it becomes your drug of choice then that’s where the trouble begins. Be smart about your choices and I like what believeingood said “Please consider every aspect of what you’re doing and try to make the right decision.”

[leanne098Member]

amylovescoco you have the same idea as me. i get what everyone else is saying i just think that it is possible to use recreationally, i dont know what to say about the illegal aspect of things i hadnt really thought of it that way, im not really a stickler for details i just live moment to moment.

[tjrennerMember]

leanne098 – I started out just like you, never did meth, it was lines of cocaine….and then the occaisional percocet or vicodin, and then it went to xanax and valium too…after while they didn’t work too well, so I upgraded to Oxy and Morphine, before I knew it, I was snorting heroin and then shooting it every day 5 or 6 times a day. This started at about 12 years old, and I’ll be 32 this summer. So, yeah you can manage for a while, you can figure out a “happy medium” between use for run and use for need, but eventually you’ll realize that day that you’ve not smoked or done any coke how shitty you feel, and then on day 2 its worse, your aggitated and easily pissed off…next thing you start to realize that you can’t just put it down and walk away. Trust me, I’d love to just walk away but I’m so physically addicted I can’t walk away with out going into seizures or constant vomiting and just down right foulness coming from all open orafices. I have been trying to find some form of treatment, but I have a wife who doesn’t understand what I’m going through, and who refuses to accpet that I need a methadone or suboxone clinic, because of the years I’ve been involved in all of this. It’s killing me, and fast, and now that I’ve decided to just stop cold turkey I am really afraid that I could possibly die if I’m not carefull because of the odd times that these seizures occur. I hope that you can just decide to walk away. It’s your best bet. Don’t be like me.

[dylanMember]

tjrenner: If you want to get clean and sober and you are done there is help. You would need to detox in safe medical environemnt. I dont know what your financial situation is but I am sure you can get help to detox. After that a 12 step program which you work rigorously will save your life and help you live a new life beyond your wildest dreams. 12 step programs are free and it has been my personal experience that it was the only thing that worked for me. I have been sober 15 years and I still work my steps every day as my worst day now is still better than my best days using. I love my life and I got what I have through the loving gentle steps which healed my heart. Be real careful about going cold turkey this is best done in a controlled medical environemnt as its dangerous.

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